What Have I Been Up To?

My apologies for disappearing all of the sudden from the writing scene! I’ve had a lot of things going on lately but am here to report the wonderous doings of my mind and life! I haven’t been reading too many new books, but have still had time to revisit some old books/series I love and find a few new movies and shows I’ve added to my favorites.

For those interested, here are some things I’ve been getting involved with lately I think you’ll find interesting.

I Found a New Job

First and foremost, I’ve been missing mostly because I suddenly got a teaching job at a charter school The International School at Mesa Del Sol in Albuquerque, NM. Part of you are probably thinking, “Wait. . . I thought you hated teaching Aubrey?” The other half of you are probably wondering what I actually am teaching.

To answer the first question, yes, I hated teaching before I went on my mission. I love to study, write, and talk about things that interest me. I discovered, however, how heartbreaking it can be teaching these things to kids who belittled and attacked what I loved. So I decided I didn’t want to go through that again.

Recently, however, I’ve been really concerned with the direction education in the United States is going. I wondered what I could do in response and realized I had the education and talent to teach in public schools. Turns out I wasn’t using these two things as much as I should have.

Therefore, I found a great opportunity to get a teaching certificate and stretch myself as an individual mentally and intellectually. I am currently teaching Russian language and cultural studies. To middle schoolers. Mmm hmm. It’s been quite an adventure these past two months! This is partially because I had to build the program from nothing in only a few days.

What have I been reading?

Firstly, let’s talk about the plethora of Russian fairytales I’ve studied the past few weeks! Let me tell you, they don’t disappoint. Before I started teaching my class, I vaguely knew about some of them because of one of my favorite series, The Winternight Trilogy by Katherine Arden.

Some of the best I’ve had the pleasure of exploring in my six classes are “The Frog Princess”, “Ivan Tsaravitch, the Firebird and the Grey Wolf,” “Koschei the Deathless”, and “Vasilisa the Beautiful”. If you have read Arden’s fantasy series before, you will definitely enjoy going through these and other fairytales.

The Charlie Bone Series

I don’t know why, but when I go through stressful periods of change in my life I like to go back and read this series through. I find it intensely satisfying to read stories that have their heroes face evil and malicious intent but come out conquerors despite everything against them.

What I’ve always liked about Nimmo’s titular series is how she weaves in elements of fantasy with the Arts. Someone once asked me which book series I would enjoy falling into. I’d say this would definitely be the winner. Even if Bloors Academy starts off as a terrible school, I would have loved to have lived in their old city witnessing the world’s magic come to life.

Blissful Land

“Khang Zhipa is a 13-year-old doctor’s apprentice living in a mountain village in 18th-century Tibet. One day, when he gets back from collecting medicinal herbs, he finds a bride-to-be and her wedding party will be resting at his home for the night. The bride’s name is Moshi Rati and it turns out she’s actually Khang Zhipa’s fiancée from another land, here to stay! Enjoy this heartwarming slice-of-life tale woven by a kind-hearted boy and his mysterious bride.”

This delightful series came very unexpectedly a few weeks ago. I don’t know very much about Tibet’s history, but this series made it’s people and their culture come to life for me. Some might think this story is slow, or uninteresting. I disagree. I liked it’s easy-going nature and lack of toxic drama. If you like more historical manga, but don’t like excessive violence or drama this is the series for you.

I loved it for its breathtaking art, knowledge of ancient medicinal practices, and for taking its time to mindfully portray such a gorgeous culture.

What have I been watching?

So far, I’ve seen two new movies and one new series. (Like I said, I haven’t really been going out of my way lately to see new things.)

I usually don’t go see movies in theaters. No because I don’t love movies! I’m just picky. And busy. But I went to the theater with my family and watched this new adventure drama. It’s wasn’t the greatest movie I’ve ever seen, but it was fun, had cool effects and some nice twists to it. If anything I thought it was a Hodge podge of The African Queen (1951) with Katherine Hepburn and Humphrey Bogart and The Mummy (1999).

I will say, I like how the movie poster is sort of reminiscent of old adventure films from the 1930’s and 1940’s.

Shang-Chi was a very thought-provoking watch for me. I wouldn’t say the plot was revolutionary. It was quite predictable. But I liked the heroes journey Shang went through as he learned to balance the good he learned from his mother and the bad he inherited from his father. I’m a sucker for good marital arts in films, and this movie DOES NOT disappoint in that aspect.

I also thought his father’s story arc was deeper than it initially seemed. I wondered a lot about how we become biproducts of our ancestors and carry with us connections with these family members beyond this life. I also thought a lot about ENERGY in and outside the body and how we can learn to control it through meditative movement.

All in all, I would watch this again if someone pulled it up.

Yeah. . . for some reason I keep re-watching episodes from this show. Part of it’s funny, part of its gross, while another part tries to have philosophical moments mixed in with ridiculous editing and character designs. I still don’t know how I quite feel about this show. Maybe someday I’ll figure it out.

At first glance, this story seems like another rip off of snow white. It’s not. It’s more a story about two people from different worlds learning to live, grow, and love together. I remember reading this as a manga series about six years ago and loving its characters and story. I hesitated to watch the anime because. . . romance manga usually aren’t well voiced or animated.

Now, Snow White with the Red Hair is now officially one of my new favorite anime.

However, studio BONES did the animation and they went ALL OUT. The backgrounds are gorgeous and the fight scenes are well choreographed and paced. The story also flows very well and doesn’t feel too campy or corny.

What really sold me on this show was the English voice actors FUNIMATION chose. They did a phenomenal job working with the great character animators. The facial expressions and personality this show gave to the characters in this story blew me away!

I also think this is now one of my favorite love stories. Zen and Shiriyuki respect each other and love each other and their passions. They have goals and a vision for what their futures hold. They seen beyond self gratification and entitlement, common elements in forbidden loves stories, to how their relationship can and will effect each other and others around them.

All in all, I would definately check it out if you have the time!

Over the Garden Wall has yet again caught my interest

Over the Garden Wall always seems to pique my interest around this time of year. I start thinking about it’s curious episodes and hidden meanings. Then I start looking through YouTube essays, fan art, and Etsy merchants for ways to feed my passion for this series’ story and characters.

Here are a few cool finds from the last week or so!

I like this one because it went into depth about the literary and artistic Gothic themes interwoven throughout the episodes.
This was just an all-around good analysis of the series.

Hydro Flask stickers! You can guarantee I’ve bought these two.

I also found this amazing merchant BeneathTheLeaf who makes charm bracelets for a lot of different shows and stories including (DRUM ROLL PLEASE) Over the Garden Wall! I want to have one custom made for me. I think it is the coolest thing! Check out other items she has! She has a lot of variety and does custom designs.

I’ve also been perusing fanart! Because I’m a NERD. An art nerd.

There you have it! Everything here is basically what I’ve been looking through, studying and trying to understand lately. Once October comes around, well, I’ll have A LOT more to talk about. Until then, enjoy the rest of September!

Favorite October Watches

Greetings! Even though October is officially done I wanted to list some of my favorite movie, short and show binges I’ve had during the month! Some are new, while others I’ve made a tradition to watch every year. So let’s get started.

For today I have cartoon shorts I have found/ continue to watch to this day!

Childhood Shorts:

“Where the Wild Things Are” (1975)

This is one of the shorts my siblings and I watched as kids! It is creepy yet wonderfully nostalgic.

“Teeny Tiny and the Witch Woman” (1980)

So so creepy! It’s a wonder my siblings and I didn’t have problems as we grew older. We quote this short all the time and periodically look back at it for laughs. We can all quote it ver batim.

“In The Night Kitchen” (1987)

This one is creepy for different reasons. Honestly, it probably wasn’t intended to be freaky for kids. For my family we were all more concerned with the fact the boy Mickey falls out of his cloths and is almost baked into an oven.

“The Three Robbers” (1972)

Oh so cute but oh so wonderful!

Cartoon Shorts:

“The Old Man of the Mountain” (1933)

Old cartoons are a wonderful combination of funny and creepy. This one in particular is very odd but a good example of old Betty Boop cartoons from Fleischer studios.

“The Skeleton Dance” (1929)

This is one of my absolute favorite shorts! Urb Iwerks was such a talented animator! I can’t get enough of it!

“The Tale Tell Heart” (1953)

UPA released so many great shorts in their time but this one is my favorite. It honestly reminded me of German Expressionist Films I studied in college. It was twisted and utterly haunting!

“The Hedgehog and the Fog” (1975)

This short is truly charming and visually stunning! It is so amazing what it’s creator was able to do with stop motion paper figures.

Short Films/Film Sequences:

Disney’s “Ichabod Crane” (1949)

This sequence is so vibrant! The headless horsemen is still one of my favorite animated characters to watch.

“Night on Bald Mountain/Ave Maria” (1940)

I have loved the epic ending of Disney’s “Fantasia” (1940) for a very long time. I love seeing how Satan in all his power cannot withstand faithful people and the coming dawn.

“It’s the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown” (1966)

I love The Peanuts cartoons! This is one of my favorite movies. I still have a dream to spend Halloween night in a pumpkin patch.

German Expressionist Films (And those made by their directors):

“The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari” (1920)

I LOVE THIS MOVIE! If you ever wondered where Time Burton got most of his designs and ideas this would be it!

“Nosferatu” (1922)

The grandfather of vampire movies! It isn’t scary just really really haunting especially the more one knows about its symbolism.

“The Lodger” (1927)

I’ve seen most of Alfred Hitchcock’s Films but this is the one which more closely shows his admiration and use of German Expressionist film techniques. Love over dramatized shadows and expressions.

“Metropolis” (1927)

May the heart bring together the head and the hands! This movie is bigger than life at visually fascinating.

“The Man Who Laughs” (1928)

This is one of my all time favorite movies! Its creepy but not because of Conrad Veidt’s face. It is more in answering the question “What makes a monster and what makes a man?”

“Waxworks” (1924)

It’s scary because it could be real! Not the sets necessarily but the people and situations.

“M” (1931)

One of the first sound films in Germany but also a very stark warning from director Fritz Lang about fascism. It is haunting.

TV Shows:

“The Twilight Zone” (1959-1964)

All of them. I like watching all of them.

“Over the Garden Wall” (2014)

One of my absolute favorite series! Creepy, mysterious, gorgeous and insightful.

“Adventure Time” (2010-2018)

I’m not quite sure why I watch this show. But it is plenty creepy!

“Gravity Falls” (2012-2016)

“Mushishi” (2005-2006, 2014)

Some episodes are super creepy, others are simply contemplative. Overall, a great show and perfect for October.

Movies:

“Coraline” (2009)

Must see for lovers of stop motion animation!

“The Nightmare Before Christmas” (1993)

Of course I love this movie! I see this every Halloween!

“Metropolis” (2001)

I love this one as much as the original silent film. Great music and visuals

Favorite “Over the Garden Wall” Fanart

Since it is October, my favorite month/holiday, I thought I could do a few Halloween inspired posts. Today, I want to relive one of my favorite works of animation Over the Garden Wall (2014). A tale of two brothers Wirt and Greg lost in the Unknown, Patrick Mchale’s miniseries is truly a delightful masterpiece. If interested please check out my REVIEW.

Now on this post all I want to do is post my 25 favorite Fanart pieces for this show. I’ll include the creators names and websites whenever possible. Let’s get started!

1. Aimamong, imamong.deviantart.com
2. owlyjules, owlyjules.tumblr.com
3. Owlyjules, owljules.tumblr.com
4. ?
5. Max58
6. Signed Dodo Bird Song and found on Tumblr account the afterlife
7. ?
8. Anato Finnstark, artstation.com
9. Elentori, elentori-art.tumblr.com
10. Shinji Chibana, instagram.com
11. Sigtryggr/Celia Lowenthal, celialowenthal.tumblr.com
12. ?
13. (can’t read), ?
14. ?
15. Merkymerx ,merkymerx.deviantart.com
16. PATkulkan, patkulkan.tumblr.com
17. ?, featured in theartofanimation.tumblr.com
18. Elentori, elentori-art.tumblr.com
19. gavi-gavi, gavi-gavi.tumblr.com
20. Alicia Warhola, aliciawarhola.tumblr.com
21. SunnyClockWork, deviantart.com
22. silventer, silventer.deviantart.com
23. Eleonora Bruni, behance.net
24. radiant boy, radiantboy.tumblr.com
25. ?, uploaded on pinterest by Oriana

My Favorite All-time Fanart!

Nerding Out is Healthy

I feel super inspired to share all the fan art which makes my needy soul happy. I limited it to 50. I have a voracious mind so this was harder than you would think.

50. The Hunchback of Notre Dame: Jirka Vinse
49. Cinderella: ?
48. Fullmetal Alchemist: ?
46.Howl’s Moving Castle: chernotrav
46. Over the Garden Wall: merkymerx
45. Spirited Away: Awanqui
44. Coco: ?
43. Lord of the Rings: evankart
42. Ponyo: ?
41. Avatar the Last Airbender: ?
40. Hotarubi No Mori E: ?
39. Over the Garden Wall: her name was finch
38. Princess Tutu: ?
37. The Wind Rises: ?
36. Natsume Yuujinchou: vivie
35. Spirited Away: foya

34. Princess Mononoke: ?
33. Howl’s Moving Castle: Ngoc-ha
32. The Little Prince: rcksantelli
31. The Little Mermaid : Jirka Vinse
30. Mushishi: Shirou Kamui
29. Big Hero Six: Rafael Miyani
28. Princess Tutu: ?
27. Laputa Castle in the Sky: Marlboro
26. Harry Potter: kirikawa
25. Spiderman Into the Spiderverse: ?
24. Princess Mononoke: ?
23. Steven Universe: ?
22. Space Boy: ?
21.Fullmetal Alchemist/Over the Garden Wall: ?
20. Space Boy: ?
19. The Little Prince: ?
18. Rise of the Guardians: ?
17. Coco: Chicken Doodle Soup
16. Kubo and the Two Strings: Count andra
15. Howl’s Moving Castle: chernotrav
14. The Secret of Kells: ?
13. Princess Tutu: Dugong
12. Howl’s Moving Castle: We Heart It
11. Over the Garden Wall: Imanong
10. Mob Psycho 100: ?
9. Avatar the Last Airbender: ?
8. How To Train Your Dragon 3: ?
7. Over the Garden Wall: Owly Jules
6. Harry Potter: take care of my deer
5. The Wind Rises: Ryan Miller
4. Star Wars Episode IX: ?
3. Star Wars Episode IX: Eli Draws
2. Howl’s Moving Castle: ?
1. The Wind Rises: ?

Where do I go? Day 10


This post is mostly just me rambling. I find when my thoughts are this fragmented and heavy it is best to write them out.
Lately I have felt like Wirt from Over the Garden Wall. He stated in a rather dramatic way,

Sometimes I feel like a boat upon a winding river twisting towards an endless black sea, further and further, drifting away from where I want to be, who I want to be.”

All day today I have had multiple experiences of late flash through my mind. Honestly, I’ve reached a moment in my life where I don’t fit into any mold for anyone my age in the workforce or social sphere. And it causes a lot of deep pondering. At 29 I feel on the brink of passing into another world, one which not many people talk about, because not many reach it.
It is a world where I have a plethora of choices laid before me. Choices I have to now make because life didn’t go as I planned. At 18 I didn’t think about a career, because I figured most girls married by 21 anyway so I wouldn’t need to worry about it. Well. . . obviously that didn’t quite happen for me. Big events in my life all fell out of order. So obvious choices I could make fall to the wayside.
To give you an idea, my life played out like this. At 18 I left home to go to college as a music major, an obvious choice since I loved music and performing. Within a year and a half I switched my major to history and lost my love for music. My childhood passion gone, my mind pointed in a different direction and I moved colleges and finished my degree at 23.
Well, there I was with my education finished and absolutely no idea what to do. So I went home and because a music teacher of all things. But I felt lost, so unsure of my decisions and my future. Fear gripped me hard at times and pushed me further into myself. Then at 24 I left for a mission, serving with those 7 to 8 years younger then myself, returning at 26.
When I returned I didn’t have a college to go back to nor a marriage waiting for me. So I came to Provo to work, wait and hopefully settle down.

But over two years have passed me by and now the future lays ahead like tumbled weeds, jumbled, messy and looking altogether useless.
When I talk to others about my desires for marriage not being in sight I receive now typical answers which could explain the why or the will be. I’ve had some tell me, “Perhaps you are meant to marry someone who is still married to someone else. You just need to wait until life puts him into a single position again.” You know, the standard Sleepless in Seattle scenario. Another person told me, “Many women don’t marry in this life but still find ways to be mothers and companions for others.”
Goodness knows I have heard all sorts of things, partially because I think people feel just a little sorry for me. I don’t fit into the mold. I don’t have a prestigious career and don’t have my own family. I am adrift looking forward into a future which is truly unknown.
I think it is easy to lay back and wait for any number of futures people tell me to come true. People tick off names of people I could become like, who were successful or who married famous people way later in life. It is easy to think, “Now that I am older I should start preparing myself for different goals and dreams because my previous ones no longer apply.”
It is also easy to become lost, adrift wanting and waiting for life to finally come. Waiting for something miraculous to just happen.

Because that is what happens to people in these types of stories. I could be like Eowyn from Lord of the Rings who could only see in her future death by the sword, a means she devised as an escape from a caged life. I could also become like Charlotte from Pride and Prejudice who settled into a loveless relationship because she feared she was on the road to spinsterhood and shame. Then again, I could be like Fanny from Mansfield Park who felt such pressure to accept marriage from a man she did not altogether trust.
I could be Sheri Dew, Wendy Nelson, or any number of successful women in this world who found happiness elsewhere outside traditional molds and stories. I really could.
But here is the thing. I am not any of these people. When people tell me what I should now expect because of my age, sometimes I just want to look them in the eye and say, “How could you possibly know what is in my future or what will happen to me?” Other times I want to scream how those lives people envision coming for me are not what I want.
Here is the kicker though. Do I even know what I want? If my future and life truly doesn’t fit into a workbook I can easily memorize and fill out where do I go to find out? Now, my life is a blank canvas and I have all the freedom in the world to make it what I want. But what picture do I want to paint?

The easiest thing would be to copy someone else’s life. Make myself one of countless people.
But you know what, NO ONE FITS INTO THESE SO CALLED MOLDS. All of our lives are set centered on our agency. I have the power to choose the destination and particulars of my journey. But I do get sidetracked. I fail to envision the possibilities before me because I see others passing by me with particular styles, accomplishments and talents. And in so doing, I never really understand myself.
I don’t think we are able to grow beyond our visions of ourselves. Therefore, I must change my perspective. I need to learn to BE ME. If I don’t know what I want to do, perhaps it is about time I figured it out.

The greatest truth I can leave anyone who reads this is, don’t let anyone steer you from creating your own life and finding your own answers. Be yourself, trust God and look forward. For “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”

Day 3: Fall is about the thresholds of life

Come wayward Souls,

Who wander through the darkness,

There is a light for the lost and the meek.

Sorrow and fear,

Are easily forgotten,

When you submit to the soil of the earth.

Grow, tiny seed,

you are called to the trees.

Rise, ’til your leaves fill the sky,

until your sighs fill the air in the night.

Lift your mighty limbs,

and give praise

to the fire. “Come Wayward Souls“, Over the Garden Wall

Known to many of my friends and family, Over the Garden Wall is one of my all time favorite pieces of animation. I actually wrote a REVIEW about it several years ago and continue to study different essays and videos about its content.

As far as Autumn goes, this series definitely has an intense feeling of familiarity and brightness. It is about being lost, but found and discovering courage and identity when facing death and our many fears.

I really enjoyed the video below and if you are interested give it a look! It actually isn’t too long and has some very insightful points about this series’ story, structure and characters.